I feel so lonely mann. Ewan ko ba, out of almost 15 years of academic life ewan ko nga ba kung bakit ngayon lang ako nahihirapan dito sa .6 over a 3-unit subject out of 24 units all in all -- COMPUTER!! Oi wag niyo akong tawanan, hindi ito basta basta computer subject lang na tuturuan ka mag-type, mag-print, at mag-download ng mga bold clips sa iba't ibang porn sites,,, logic formulation ito tsong. Flowcharting to be precise. 2nd year HS ako, gustong-gusto ko ang computer subject, basta programming kayang-kaya. In my little programming experience, masasabi kong medyo malupit din naman ako pero ang hindi nila alam lagi akong nagkakamali whenever I try to run the program I was trying to construct. Masasabing tanga rin kasi "cyclical" ang kamalian ko. Nagagawa ko lang ma-execute after trying so so hard dahil ako ang taong hindi basta basta sumusuko. PERO potcha ba't ngayon tila ata hindi ko magawa ang mga hamon ni Master a este Sir Yu!!! Flowchart kasi e, nasa papel, magkamali ka or kahit hindi ka sure sa logic mo, you can't run the program on the paper to see what the problem will possibly be, perhaps if you think you're wrong, then magdasal ka na lang baka makatsamba ka pa! But in the computer, if it failed to run or if you don't get what you wanted, you simply can trace the problem since programming languages can give you a clue what went wrong, and debugging after was made easy by this clue. Haay, wala pa akong napapasang test sa kanya, may 0 pa akong nakuha amp!! KAYA HINDI NA AKO UMAASA NA PAPASA PA, as of now I deserve a failure!!! Sa katotohanan nga, nag-iipon na ako ng pera pang-summer classes ko, halos isaw na lamang ang gawin kong ulam sa pang araw-araw!! Even though it hurts my pride, I simply don't care at all 'cause what I'm focusing right now is my planned major. Hopefully, I'll get all gists in Accounting for this qualifyings will, no doubt, be a great battle for the limited slots. Wala na akong paki sa computer, it's a thing of a past besides I'm not a 'computer science' student that if I didn't get it, mann, you're gonna think for a shift...

Well, kanina was just an ordinary school day, we just had our discussion, quiz, and brain-storming. After class, kain muna at nagyaya mag-counter ang mga friends ko at un napasubo, ako'y naglaro dala ng 'boredom' at nawasak na naman ang savings ko. Pagkatapos namin maglaro, sila'y nag-billiards at ako nag-internet na lang. Sa computer shop kung saan ako nag-internet, on my right side, there was a pretty chick in red (so I sang, "Lady in Red" hehe), she was not beside me sadly 'coz there was a vacant chair that made us 'somewhat' e separated. Ang bagal ng internet sa shop na un and ironically mann, I wanted that slowness 'coz those were the moments for me to get a glimpse on her while waiting for those pages to load. Hahaha!! "Siet!!" ganun at napamura ako sa isip kasi kasi, sa UST hindi na bago sa 'kin ang makakita ng mga chicks, averaging 10 per day. Pero itong nakita ko sa shop, she's indeed the woman of my dreams at sana I'll dream of her mamaya for her to become the woman not only of my dreams but IN my dreams. At bigla akong inabot ng malas nang biglang may umupo sa vacant chair, at ang malas pa e, mataba pa ung nakaupo, siet hindi ko na siya manakawan ng sulyap!! Mabait ang diyos at lumipat naman ng chair ang mataba dahil hindi siya makapag-Ragna sa vacant chair na un, at un nakaw na naman ako ng tingin sa kanya... Gustuhin ko man mag-stay ng matagal sa shop, hindi pwede kasi bawat patak ng segundo e, barya ko ang nawawala hehe 

Well, sa mga panahong un, hindi ko na inisip ung mga site na binibisita ko, type na lang ng type ng alam na site (buti 'nde sa porn sites hehe, 'nde ako naaksidente) kasi I was thinking twice and hard then kung magpapakilala ba ako or hindi... Siyempre sa huli nangibabaw ang HINDI, kasi baka may BF na, sa ganda ba naman nya, at siyempre, kung sabihin natin halimbawa na biglang maligaw 'tong mukha ko at mapunta sa ibang mukha, baka pugutin na lang nila bigla... In short, sino ba namang gago ang maglalakas loob magpakilala sa isang magandang nilalang kung ang lamang ni Aga Muhlach sa kanya ay million times more than his lifetime of paligo?!? Kaya ganun, 'nde ko na lang pinili na magmukhang gago, kaya hindi ko na lang itinuloy ang balak kong pagpapakilala at pagbibigay ng opening lines tulad ng: "Are you from Greece? 'coz you look like a Goddess." As you can see, I've been suffering mann from a complete absence of self-esteem sa mga bagay na 'yan due to my unadmirable facial rack!! Kaya ganito na lang ako, hanggang love at first sight na lang... Masaya na ako nang paglabas ko sa computer shop, ninakawan ko na naman siya ng tingin at nagulat ako kasi bigla rin siyang napatingin sa 'kin. I said, "potcha, buti na lang I turned my face opposite on her view with a gesture of a military snap, awww"

4,3,2,1,0 and I'm signing in. Hehe!! Tapos na ang Prelims and it's time for me to update entries... It has been a long time... Well, how's my exam? Ok lang, pasado naman lahat after I got all the results, passing is 65 (majors) and 70 (non-majors). The last test was the departmentals in Accounting, right after that test (kumbaga sa boxing, t'was a main event), I thought I did my best (though may ibang 'lam ko naman pero nagkamali gawa ng aking katangahan) and there was no regret. And I finally got its result, not that high but hmmm good (with my "almost failing" standards, it sufficed all my "unbloodied" efforts)... Well, how's my floaters floating in my eyes? Well, nandiyan lang sila, chasing one another (isipin ko na lang parang Flash animation sila). And how's my lovelife?? Well, dudez back to zero again... I watched "Meet the Fockers" in the cinema along with my classmates after the last test "last" Saturday to somehow give our minds a YOGA and at the same time cover our frustrations rooted from the exams... T'was really funny dudez, highly-recommended for all lonely-hearted pips out there! Currently, downloading, "You'll Be Safe Here" mp3 by Rivermaya at sana Gorgeous_joy@Kazaa wag kang mag-logout habang trinatransfer mo pa ang mp3 file na yan sa 'kin, kundi lalagyan kita ng virus o hahalikan kita (hehe jok)... Mann, I'm gonna make this entry short, 'coz I have some important obligations to squarely face, a lesson plan 'coz I'm gonna teach our Aeta brothers (sa Tarlac) very basics of Reading and Maths this Sunday and an Encyclical that I'm gonna research for our Socio report (naka ng tooots, magpapari ata me e)... In short with a responsibility I'm aware of dahil 'sus bilang na lang ang taon at baka maging tatay na me (hehe), before I get this 2nd year in college a FINISH, I'm gonna 1st get all the gists of the current Accounting lesson considering the fact that we'll be having a quiz 'bout it this Monday. I'm gonna study those "still" out-of-my-reality Treasury Stocks, Delinquent etc. etc. for the sake of passing that very big 6-unit subject, or merely getting a good grade, learning it (para hindi mag-mukhang tanga when the moment comes I step into the real world), but not necessarily one small step to pass the Quali for an accounting major...