Natapos na lang ang weekend and I didn't even try to lift a single page on books I need to study for the upcoming Finals.  How brilliant hehe.  Before the weekend(Friday) was, no doubt, one of the most hellish days of my life, just imagine bre that out of the 4 subjects, we had a "quiz" on ALL the four of them...  It's mentally-tiring, to share.  The quiz on Tax was insanely difficult, even if I studied so well, it would still turn out insanely difficult.  How hard it was then??  The years damn.  The years on every problem were damn "specified" and there were actually different tax rates applicable to each year...  That's, no wonder, HARD!!!  Unless, of course, if you already know that in 1998, the flat rate for a corporation was 34%, 1999 was 33% and only in the year 2000 was the 32% applied, and it was again changed last Nov. 2005, I suppose, to 35%...  Law, was a bit hard too, I failed to remember that damn paid-up capital minimum(5000)...  Katangahan talaga!!!

Last night, I watched No Way Out...  No doubt that the Angle and Taker match was one of the best matches of WWE history to capture the ultimate gold: WWE World Heavyweight Champion...  The match was exciting and as many described it, it seems that the match will take FOREVER but Kurt Angle creatively managed that so-called inventive pin from Taker's Triangle Choke and got the three...  And he retained the gold.  Angle is no doubt the BEST and Taker's the phenom...

So much for that WWE craze hehe...

Well, yesterday, I got a hair-cut due to insistent public demand hehe.  I didn't deny the fact that my hair was literally a MESS and despite my laziness, I finally went to the barber and BOOM, the result is good hehe.  But before I went to the barber, I had gone to my favorite store(National Bookstore), again read some spiritually-uplifting books on the psychology section, and there was one book there that I scanned, and to my surprise, there was a story on that book(sorry, I forgot the title) about an American aviator during the World War who, by mistake, landed on a Japanese fleet hehe...  The end of the story was a MORAL that STRIKES me most haha...  Was it fate that brought me to read that very page hehe??  Well, since I'm a believer of FATE, well I think so...  Well, the story is pretty simple.  The American Aviator is a great fighter and he gunned down several Japanese fighter planes, and when he finally reported to "the" Captain how GREAT he performed the mission, the Captain spoke in a bit broken english that he appreciated very well the Aviator's exceptional skills BUT(a laughable surprising BUT) that Aviator wrongly landed on the Japanese fleet and the Captain he spoke to is actually a Japanese captain hehehe...  Well, you got the story hehe??  So let me paraphrase a little the moral of that story that really strikes me: Well, you may be the greatest of all, you may be exceptional at performing life's greatest missions, but be sure, you MUST land on the right track...  In Computers for example, there are many programmers who are good enough to develop a program but despite their intelligence, some are making viruses instead of System Designs...  They really are exceptional at doing it but are they landing at the right fleet???  Well, if making a virus program is right for you, then you must be really good(sarcasm inside hehe).  So, what strikes me most in the story??  It's pretty different, the example I gave is a pretty obvious lesson, but as for me, it's a bit different...

For years, I've been a lazy person.  I once had a New Year's resolution but it seems like I'm still not practicing what I need to resolve...  If I'm given a piece of cake, I'll go eat first the icing of it...  IN SHORT, I'm like an American aviator, wasting time and energy gunning down things which are somewhat important like typing this very entry for few readers, watching for my entertainment, sleeping to reserve a high amount of energy, etc. but still I wonder, if "that" juice is worth the squeeze...  Will I land on the right fleet??  In short, my passion is burning on the other side and will there come a time when I finally spoke to the Captain(Whoever he is) and he'll say these words that would wake me up: "You had wasted much energy on things of undeniable importance that I, but, appreciate but NOT as important as this thing which is of upmost one--landing on the right fleet?  So in the near future despite the unrelated efforts I've done for human development(hehe), if I don't land in a job which I have invested for, then shame on me hehe...  Kaya pasok na muna ako hagikgikgik

Hanep 'tong araw na 'to, kaarawan lang naman ni Pops, siguro na sa isip niyo na busog ako 'no hehe?  Ikagugulat mo 'to dahil sa totoo lang lalo pa akong nagutom!  Sa madaling salita, hindi naging maligaya ang kaarawan ni Pops at ang buong pamilya damay-damay.  BAKIT??  Simple lang, dahil uminom siya magdamag kasama ang mga kaibigan sa opisina at kami dito naghintay, nagutom, dahil ang hapunan na sana'y masarap na handa ay nauwi sa WALA!!!  Asar ako?  PUTA sino bang HINDI!!!  Tinalikuran ang sariling pamilya sa kanyang masaya 'sanang' kaarawan kapalit ang paglalasing at mga kaibigan(buti sana kung mga tunay)...  Ay kumusta naman!  Nandito ang nanay ko, nasa labas ng bahay nagmumunimuni, malamang nasa kanyang tabi ang pinakamalaking HIMUTOK!!!  Malamang, galit na galit siya!!!  Sino bang hindi??  Ayun, bagsak ang tatay ko sa kama sa sobrang kalasingan!  Kumusta naman!

RESPETO PA RIN, hay...

Pagdating niya, kahit MAJOR tampo si Ma, ako todo project ang NGITI(sarcasm inside hehe) at nasabi ko na lang na "isang araw lang Pops ang birthday mo."  Sa sinabi kong 'yan, 'to lang ang kahulugan: Maikli talaga ang isang araw lalo na sa araw ng kaarawan, pero KAHIT PA, unahin muna sana ang pamilya, ang tunay na prioridad gipit man sa oras o pera...  AKO nga eh, last birthday ko, nagkataon na minalas kami at wala kaming pera, umuwi ako sa bahay kaagad PARA SA PAMILYA, KAHIT PA(echo), WALA AKONG HANDA!!!  Siya pa, na meron naman ng sapat na pera para sa masaya 'sanang' pagsasalo.  Wala naman mabigat na problema ang pamilya namin at kung problema ang tawag niyo sa minsang karanasan namin na halos sardinas na lang ang ulam namin na may halong itlog, sa 'kin ay HINDI problema eun!!!  Pero bakit ganoon na lang kalala ang pagka-irresponsable ng tatay ko, sa araw pa mismo ng kaarawan niya e wala naman kaming mabigat na problema(tulad nang nasulat ko)!!!  May trabaho naman siya, ayos naman sila ni Ma, ako? hindi naman nag-drodroga o laki sa layaw, at(kahit hindi na kailangan pang sabihin hehe) lahat ng mga anak niya na kahit ang isa ay tamad(present hehe), may direksiyon naman sa buhay.  Dahil dito, pancit canton na lang ang hapunan ko, instead na, masarap na manok sa KFC hehe!!!

RESPETO PA RIN...

Respeto pa rin ang sinukli ko kahit medyo nagtatampo rin ako, dahil nag-bless pa rin ako(tradisyon sa 'min 'to) sa kanyang kamay pagdating niya kahit walang greetings, kasi naman wala namang greetings na "Happy Birthday" na walang salitang "Happy."  Ano eun "birthday" lang na hindi nga naman BUO para maintindihan...  Hindi ko rin naman masisi si Ma kung ganoon na lang kabagsik ang pinakita niyang emosyon kay Pops.  Sabi pa niya sa lantang lasing, i-diary mo 'tong nangyari sa birthday mo hehe.  I-blog ko na lang hehe(posibleng makita pa ng mga kamaganak hehe)...

RESPETO PA RIN(tama!)

Hindi magandang pahintuin ang emosyon ng isang tao na DAPAT lang namang ilabas(healthy 'to hehe) katulad na lang ng ipinamalas ni Ma.  Gusto ko man gayahin ang paghihimutok o kadramahan ni Ma, ayoko naman ng ganoon.  Hindi ka na nga nakakatulong, nagpapabigat ka pa sa sitwasyon 'pag sumali ka pa, 'di ba hehe?  Tama lang na si Ma na lang ang humirit ng mga Maalala Mo Kaya lines hehe.  Dahil naiintindihan ko rin naman ang damdamin ng may sala at eun ay si Pops, sa katanuyan nasa katinuan pa naman ako, at nagpasyang MANAHIMIK na lang.  Dahil kapag ako'y lantarang maglabas ng emosyon, asahan niyo na DOBLE pa ang kalibre nun kaysa sa sinusulat kong 'to hehe at hindi malabong mangyari ang sakitan!

Hindi ko naman tatapusin 'tong entry na 'to kapag wala akong naibabahaging aral(diyos ko, 'yan na naman hehe), simple lang, RESPECT rocks!!!  Sa totoo lang, I'd rather be CASTRATED if that would be the only way to finally stop the multiplication of a DISrespectful race haha.  LABO 'no hehe?  Katulad ng ginawa ko sa aking tatay(of course with an understandable excemption of Ma), kung wala kayong matinong sasabihin sa inyong kapwa, puta manahimik na lang...  Siyempre, this isn't WITHOUT excemptions hehe kaya maliban na lang siyempre kung nakakatulong ito sa NARARAPAT na paglabas ng emosyon(Ma, you did the right thing) o nakakatulong na batikos BUT other than that tulad ng pagpapalala sa sitwasyon(na hindi ko naman ginawa) at HIGIT sa lahat ang pagbabato ng mga walang kwentang batikos(unconstructive criticism) maiahon lang ang sarili mula sa matinding insecurity o pataasin ang wala ng itataas pang IHI, JUST to say the least, ay puta manahimik na lang.  Pustahan tayo, if you practice that always, you unknowingly are giving yourself some kind of a respect that you always deserve...     

Still, sana magkaayos na kaming lahat, sana bukas...

Wow, it has been days since I last updated this blog.  How was me?  Ok naman(sinagot ang sariling tanong 'no? hehe).  Tapos na ang Finals, sa wakas bakasyon na(kung matatawag man na bakasyon eun hehe).  So kumusta Finals ko o ang kabuuang sem na rin?  NAKU, SABLAY hehe..  Baka nga mag-Phd pa ako niyan sa A&B sa katatapos ko pa lang na Masters hehe.. I can bravely say, though it's still not safe to say, that I had hurdled it somehow.  Wala namang pinagkaiba eh, ganon pa rin naman kahirap ang mga test sa inulit ko, pero this time, I have learned my past mistakes, the very reason why I'm somehow CONFIDENT...  PERO ung Tax grabe, nahirapan ako, kaya ako'y seryosong nanalangin na sana naman hindi na ako bumagsak pa!  BAKA personalin ni Sir sa Tax ang hindi ko nakumpletong requirement niya dahil isang gabi ko lang eun ginawa hehe...  Still, my hopes are not going down(good thing 'bout me)...  Malas lang talaga na sa kasagsagan ng Finals ang lakas ng SIPON ko hehe.  Kanina nga sa test sa A&B, grabe nahihiya na ako sa mga classmates ko baka kasi naiistorbo ko sila sa malakas na pagsinghot ko habang nag-eexam hehe.  Kaya medyo wala ako sa pisikal na kondisyon kanina sa test at siyempre kung wala ka sa kondisyon makakasagot ka ba nang maayos??  *doubts*  So to cheer me up a little bit, I wrote a little poem about what I NEED to realize now and forever hehe...

Once is enough, twice is too much...

Haba 'no hehe??  Para ngang hindi ko poem 'yan eh(at HINDI poem 'yan haha), kanino ko ba 'to narinig??  Next time na lang ako gagawa ng tula dito hehe, medyo bagsak na rin kasi 'tong mata ko..  Well, it only means that one failure is enough and failing twice is really too much...  My failure then was a bit justified(wasn't it?) but if ever I fail this time which is still possible to happen, then the sign's clear that this course isn't simply for me and God is re-directing me to another path which He thinks is best for me.  Ngayong sem, hindi malabong bumagsak pa ako ulit at kung hindi ngayong sem, sa mas madugong darating pa.  Kasi sa pagkakakilala ko sa aking sarili, TAMAD talaga ako, minsan nawawalan ako ng tinatawag nilang passion sa ginagawa.  Sa iba, ang katamaran ay NO BIG DEAL, 'pag nabanggit nilang tinatamad sila, parang wala lang, pero sa 'kin MALALA eh...  Gawin ba naman ang Tax sa isang gabi lang from Chapter1 to Chapter16(sana lang hanggang Chapter 16 ang natapos ko hehe)...  At aralin minsan ang major quizzes sa A&B sa loob lamang ng 3 oras, minsan nga hindi pa umaabot sa 3 eh...  Kaya kung bumagsak man ako, blame's on me...  Nakakaramdam ka rin ba ng mga ganyang symptoms ng malalang katamaran, samahan na natin ang hindi maligo kapag weekend na walang pasok at dahil ngayo'y bakasyon na, baka sa buong bakasyon pa hindi maligo hehe??  Baka ang article na ito'y makatulong sa inyo, kasi sa 'kin hindi masyado eh hehe --> ITO, kaibigan...

CHRONIC PROCRASTINATION!  Katulad nga nang nasabi ko, hindi lang 'to basta-basta katamaran, which to some are INFREQUENT, chronic na 'to hehe!!!  Well, ung 7 symptoms ay OUCH, natamaan talaga ako, lalo na ang symptom na talking without acting at daydreaming, grabe, sa 'kin PALAGI talaga 'yan...  Diyos ko, tulungan niyo ko..

Sana makapunta ako sa outing namin sa Bataan, 'la lang, baka kasi hindi eh for purely financial reasons...  Of course, a typical Rc would do whatever it takes not just to let anyone down...  Kaya pilitin ko talaga makasama, gagawin ko pang collateral ang alaga kong ipis para lang maka-utang haha(korni)...

Sa mga chronic readers ng munting blog ko na 'to hehe(chronic eh no, kapal hehe), maraming salamat talaga sa pag-bisita may bagong entry man ako o wala, I was on the verge of quitting then 'til I've found out that everyday, there are at least n who visit and read my entries here...  Salamat talaga, I really won't blog without you hehe...  So for advertisement purposes, my next entry would be about my top weirdness hehe...  Laugh your heart out haha... 

Oh, I forgot to congratulate my little sis for she's about to graduate from elementary and she'll not ONLY go up the stage and receive a piece of coupon bond hehe, for she successfully reaped a 3rd honorable mention award..  And being her brother, I definitely am so proud of her...