SPOILER WARNING: What is this for anyway hehe?  Just don't assume "anybody."  Please be a responsible reader once and for all hehe

Somebody opened up her problems about her "self" to me and I feel darned for I gave her one WRONG ADVICE which she didn't take and please, don't EVER take hehe.  Most of the time, I just listened to her and uttered few UNremarkable words, but when I finally opened up my mouth to give an advice, I told her, "don't just talk" and I believe that was really, really a WRONG ADVICE I gave and she actually reacted with manifest disparity haha .  But, of course, the advice I gave was NOT necessarily inadvertent, for I gave it on purpose to perhaps alleviate her stess over her "self" that moment in time.  Let me paraphase that: to perhaps clear the messy desk at the back of her mind.  No matter what my defense is through that unnecessary "paraphrase," it was admittedly still "wrong" hehe.

Well, to get a glimpse about our talk, I'll share just a LITTLE yet CLEAR enough, so let me start-up by describing her "self."  *scanning*  Definitely, she's not the only one who's having trouble about establishing a "comfort zone" with other people, now you've got what I'm talking about hehe.  But surprisingly, she's not a "geek" type who has, ever since, been having trouble mingling with people over a mug of Red Horse beer for she's definitely a certified and self-confessed outgoing type of person.  At this point, it sounds very IRONIC and yet she simply said, of course without gusto, that she isn't LIKEABLE at least in one sector of her life despite the "social parties" she's always at where it's definitely expected from her that she might have been properly honed in this very aspect!  I must say this: she can't change her destiny of having a "pretty" face YET an "intimadating" look(perhaps one reason why she's having a hard time to be liked) but she can annihilate the things which are running a little roughly on her by radically changing her VIEW towards her "self."  I was NOT in the sound state of mind for I gave a wrong advice that time.  It was a little haste yet not inadvertent, so, because of this, let me RATIFY or cleanse the defect(wrong advice) hehe by writing about it. Maybe, this entry is FOR you, if you are reading this, but mainly FOR the public as well.  What would this entry do for me?  Simply, I'm writing because I'm a FRIEND(I didn't say GOOD but wasn't that implied haha?)

It seems very BASIC to re-advise you and to the countless people in DENIAL to just BE YOURSELF yet won't you agree that BASIC things in life can make a difference?  From the very moment you walked on the surface of the earth, there has never been like "you" at all and there will never, ever, be like "you."  Remember, we are all UNIQUE in so many ways.  So much for that, I think I've driven my point well hehe.  Point is, if most people don't like you for reasons NOT obvious, though it's inevitable to care about it, try NOT to care.  You are "yourself" no matter what happens.  About the wrong advice I gave to you when I said that you try NOT to talk to people who will just laugh at you, then I admit I was "wrong."  Ratifying it as promised hehe, JUST TALK no matter what happens for you're just being "yourself" by doing that so and if ever they will laugh at you again afterwards for whatever purpose which, I'm sure, would be as "shallow" as their brains, who f*ckin cares?  At least you've done yourself a GREAT favor by letting out "YOU."  Though, it will make you a little paranoid about yourself, just fight the feeling.  And besides, to be honest for God sake, you've been one of the few people I talked to with sense since Kay(trivia: comparing you to this person is more than appreciation, damn I've missed this person so bad, comment here once please hehe).  So it's NOT about how you talk why you are being laughed at, my intelligent guess says that it is because of who you simply are that has really made you a little "paranoid" over this thing: YOU CAN'T BE LIKED.  So to flourish this entry a bit with a flowery quote from a great man let me paste here what the great essayist Ralph Waldo Emerson wrote in his essay on Self-Reliance where I honestly got most of the idea hehe.  This might help:

"What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This rule, equally arduous in actual and in intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know it. It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude."

I can't analyze that quote accurately ehehe, in fact, the only sentences I understood were the sentences in BOLD.  But one thing's for sure, it is damn related, 'cause if you don't agree, then you don't hehe. Maybe, I'll be giving this quote on your birthday as a "card" to bash a strand of stress from your brain, provided I'm not slacking at that point hehe.  Happy weekends everyone

Yes, I'm Mr. Darang but at this very point I'm becoming DERANGED hahaha   Who will NOT go nuts if one's experiencing an unfortunate series of events(not the movie)?  First unfortunate event is that I've just had a hard time writing the "intro" part of this very entry and a sign that I'm now becoming a little rusty or maybe I just don't have a sensible thing to write about(sorry no 9/11 tribute).  Second, our "helper" went to our province, in Samar, to finally take her "luxurious" 3-week vacation, meaning, NO PARKING OF LAZY BUTTS signs are all around the house.  Third and actually the unfortunate event that triggered me to become UNBALANCED and ultimately write this crappy entry is the quiz today in Cost Accounting about Process Costing.  Now, I've finally realized that it is INDEED the hardest lesson in Cost Accounting and so far I can say that this INDEED is the hardest test in my whole Accounting ordeal, even harder than the most memorable Cash test.  That test is actually the first time when I almost thought of surrendering and passing the test with many items I left blank was surprisingly a "wiser" choice just to end the suffering.  On a serious note, I wasn't SO prepared, enough to enjoy answering problems like I usually do IF PREPARED.  Sad thing is I've never been SO prepared always.  Fifth and just a little shallow, a flying cockroach hit my head, that cockroach was perhaps blinded by an enormous amount of light "reflected" on my forehead.  OMG, I'm balding!  Sixth, I think I'm having a hard time letting out a "smile" on your face hehe.  Seventh, tomorrow might be another recitation in BA and I'll possibly have a hard time maintaining my "composure" when asked by a strict, scary, and witty professor and I bet I WILL.  But I still wonder why my name was skipped the last time he did a recitation, calling people alphabetically.  So next time would be different *shakes knees*

Well, I'm wasting another HUGE amount of time or in short slacking once again for I don't want to leave my blog UNLOVED.  As I've said, our helper took a vacation and it would definitely be HOPED from me to do the house chores which I believe is a good thing since my schedule for slacking would be erased from the notepad.  So point is, I'll not be blogging, provided that there would be NO important thing to blog about, until our helper comes back home because aside from the chores, this first sem is nearly coming to an end and I don't want to repeat another subject.  So this is just another focus IN DENIAL haha.  So that's all I have to say and enjoy my absence for a while hehe .  To make this deranged entry DERANGED, I believe readers of my blog have been curious enough about how it feels to be on the blogger's shoe so just to share an aspect, I'm usually here sitting on a computer chair, typing this, surfing the Net not only to view smut but to read this:

 

 

Congratulations, I've just wasted your precious time hehe.  No. 8, my Net time has eaten me alive.  So I must exit myself before I become a turd so that I could focus on... uploading MP3s hehe.  Substantiating this crappy entry a bit, here's from Theophrastus:

 "Time is the most valuable thing a man can spend."

What a pain in the ass!  Well, take this LITERALLY this time for I have a huge pimple-like BOIL(pigsa) on my left hump haha!  And it hurts everytime I sit hehe.  Just to share, we've had a new dog WHICH arrived yesterday, describing it a little, I've got TWO WORDS for it.  DEPRIVED of SEX haha.  Really, it would really jump onto you, try to stick his "stick" and do the doggy style haha.  In short man, he wants to FUCK so badly and it would even bark loudly everytime it sees our "other" dog WHICH "unfortunately" happens to be a GIRL haha.  I'm beginning to like this dog nonetheless for SOMETIMES when I say with conviction the word "SIT!" it would sit.  It can be trained, in short.  So much for my doggy style of writing haha   Let me go into the heart of this entry.  It's about USTe haha.  Now, you get what I'll write about hehe...

Last Thursday, it was my second time to watch UAAP, the ultimate source of school pride.  The first time was NOTHING, I just went to Ateneo gym to get a perfect attendance(this has an incentive) for my PE class which I can proudly say, it was FITNESS hehe but somehow it unleashed the "fan" within me.  BUT the second time just last Thursday, was oh so different!  Well mainly because it was a DO or DIE match between UE and UST to get Ateneo a match for the FINALS bre, echoing a little further, FOR THE FINALS BRE hehe.  *crap this pain in the ass*  Alright, to give you a little trivia, it has been 7 long years since UST's Final's appearance against DLSU and a decade since Aric Del Rosario's era that led the team to the "ultimate glory" against the same team.  What a DROUGHT!  To give you another trivia, as far as I can remember, also last Thursday, it was my toe's first step on the floor of the Thrilla in Manila venue, yeah, that's the BIG DOME man.  And to share, every moves mattered a LOT. Everytime UST scores, my heart was all out and everytime UE scores, my heart shatters.  The emotions were overflowing up to the ceiling, a total delight would suddenly turn into momentary sadness, especially the final quarter, the time UE led a nerve-wracking margin of 5, the big UST crowd was completely silenced then.  When time ran out in the final quarter and UE failed to make one big shot that could have propelled them into the Finals, this isn't an exaggeration bre that the very floor where I was standing all throughout the game SHOOK!!!  Maybe because of the abrupt synchronized JUMP of the Tomasian crowd from their seats.  I was so much happy that I even hugged Kwebs, Allen, and Tope haha!  Watching it LIVE is so much better than watching it on TV, the enthusiasm of the fans is really one hell of an experience.  You just can't get over with it hehe.  In fact, I planned to write this very entry when I got back home but being a dorky Accounting student as I am, time constraint is always the alibi(truth was I just slept) hehe tsk tsk but still up to now, it's already Sunday(Finals against Ateneo) and I can't help to be SO excited.  I'll just catch it on TV *sighs*

It has been 8 long years since the last time *crap this pain in the ass* I became a hardcore Purefoods basketball fan.  Ever since that, I've hardly become a fan because my idol Alvin Patrimonio was getting older and he wasn't that "skilled" anymore than he ever was.  I was a fan too of Dindo "the Bullet" Pumaren(UE coach) and NOT Pido "the Fireman" Jarencio(UST coach) everytime Purefoods and Ginebra meet up at the PBA Finals.  Pido didn't fail to give me a headache that time everytime he made a BIG three-point shot that made my Purefoods buckle.  Today, it seems so ironic hehe, I now idolized Pido's "never say die" saga.  Despite, the adversities(mainly sickness) that UST has gone through, I can't even believe it myself that they finally made it to the Finals.  What a furious "hell" the rookie coach Pido has got.  The moment they upended the mighty Ateneo in their second encounter, I told myself, UST has been for this thing: CHAMPIONSHIP.  Hope the Tigers would feast an Eagle for supper!!!  Go USTe hehe!